For the past few days, I feel emotionally vulnerable. I knew homesickness is kicking again. It’ll be a matter of time before I snap and hug my cold pillow to sleep – soaking with tears. Tonight, it just happened.
I’m watching youtube videos when I stumbled into a momshie’s channel (American Mom if I’m not mistaken, I’ll paste the link, just have little time to edit at the moment). She was requested to watch jollibee commercials specially made for valentines day (I think it was aired 3 years ago and I cried a lot the first time I watched).
Lying on my bed in the corner of our room (I’m sharing with one of my colleague), I have to cry silent tears realizing what I have missing way back home. Watching my wife sleeping silently beside me, waking her up with my embrace, fetching my son to school, playing with him and be a dad spending quality time with each other, guide him as he grow, praying and serving God together as one family, travel together, dreaming with my wife about our son’s future… These are just few moments I can think of that we’re being deprived of.
One day, all the power of the universe will transpire so I can pursue my own Personal Legend (the Alchemist) 🙂
One day I’m watching Ryan (in his youtube channel Ryan Toys Review) and being fascinated on travelling via plane. Never did I knew that you and mom are planning a pre-birthday present for me! Thank you dad for this gift of travel – a journey so to speak.
Mom and I along with ninang joann and her family boarded a plane bound to Cebu. I’m so excited especially I’ve got a newly-met playmate – mj (ninang joann’s nephew).
I’m enjoying every minute of our travel and everything is happening so fast, I just then found myself sitting next to mom.
I noticed that I barely hear my voice when the plane lifted. And my ears hurt a little. Mom said it’s the pressure (which is above my comprehension). I got bored and thought of the comfort of my room watching and eating all day long.
When we landed, I told mom that I actually enjoyed my first flight – minus the modulated voice and strange feeling in my ears.
Touchdown: Cebu. I wished you were here so you will get our luggage and mom will carry me whenever I don’t feel walking. And of course, we miss you.
Interactions on social media network is fun, quick, and efficient. However, stress arises due to massive crowd reading and replying with out posts/comments. I’m not a public figure but I can feel them. Many times I find myself in a scenario wherein I have to explain myself to be understood while taking a stand to be corrected. It’s a pity, and unnecessary.
Yesterday I deactivated my facebook account. I left my facebook messenger active so I can still reachable by those that matters 😁
It’s not an issue of productivity, I have complete control of my time. I just don’t feel the thrill that once brought by social media network.
I still utilize chat apps, I can’t afford to unplug yet 🙂