Posted in Music & Lyrics

Held (Natalie Grant)

Two months is too little
They let him go
They had no sudden healing
To think that providence
Would take a child from his mother
While she prays, is appalling
Who told us we’d be rescued
What has changed and
Why should we be saved from nightmares
Were asking why this happens to us
Who have died to live, it’s unfair


This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was that when everything fell
We’d be held

This hand is bitterness
We want to taste it and
Let the hatred numb our sorrows
The wise hand opens slowly
To lilies of the valley and tomorrow

This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was that when everything fell
We’d be held

If hope if born of suffering
If this is only the beginning
Can we not wait, for one hour
Watching for our savior

This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was that when everything fell
We’d be held
[Repeat Chorus]

Posted in Health Tips

Forgiving the Flesh–In Which I Recount the Ways My Body Has Betrayed Me

An inspiring story of mom’s journey to recovery


Dear Lily June,

As human beings, we live in the flimsy structures of our fleshy bodies. Our hearts, like birds, are protected only by a cage of ribs; our minds, like yolks, sit inside the bony eggs of our skulls. It is a system designed to be fragile and frail. We are not built to last forever.

In my youth, I felt as if my body was invincible and thus, I treated it as if it were invisible. (In fact, your Grandma Raelyn might recall to you someday how I used to hide my body, as a toddler, under my ratty baby blanket, transforming myself into a makeshift ghost and earnestly believing no one could see me when I was under there.)

When my own Grandmother Mary began the comparison game as I hit my early teens, wondering why I couldn’t “try to be beautiful” like my sister–your Aunt Loren–I…

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Posted in Devotions


Whenever my judgment is clouded by the circumstances I am in, I keep trusting in the Lord that He has a plan for me [Jeremiah 29:11]. It may not be working for now as I am expecting, I know that in His perfect time, all things will work together for good [Romans 8:28].

Posted in Music & Lyrics

There’s Something About The Song

If you are a music lover like me, you might pick few songs that you can sing your life with. There are songs that fit just right to our current mental and emotional state. Below are the songs that reflect much of my “innermost being.”

Beauty From Pain (Superchick)

Yeah, you read it right. It’s a sad song actually. There are emotions we choose to leave unsaid, silent in the dark. And then there’s hope. It’s like thinking out of circumstances you are into. It’s the hope that matters.


I bet you saw it coming. The song is like Warrior is a Child by Gary V. It’s the reality contrary to what people are seeing in us outwardly. No matter how tough we are, deep inside there’s something that longs to be just fine. My favorite line is “… looking for special things inside of me.”


Not we’re getting depressed 🙂 It’s about getting tired of proving himself, saying that “it’s me! I don’t care whether you agree or not. it’s me!” There are times I’m taking comfort of listening to this song. It’s a realization that it’s not only me that feel that way. Well, I’m not crazy, i’m just a little unwell. 🙂

In The End

This ride is getting bumpy. Here’s for the people who are being unappreciated by the people around them. This one’s for us.

Wait and See

I featured this song in one of my posts. I’m so in love with this song, it reflects most of my early life struggling for my worth. You know what I mean.

Note: You may view the entire playlist here. This is a post on progress, feel free to check once in a while. Thanks!

Posted in Reflections

…And Then The Idea Flew Out Of My Head

If I am carrying a notebook with me always, I must’ve written lots of brilliant ideas. I’m a thinker. I am convinced that there must be a reason in everything. That random act, that isolated reactions, that unprovoked motion – that must be started from something! I love to see the concept beyond innovations. I want to witness radical change. That force is vital for growth and development. I want to discover that.

In one of my “me” moments, I am focusing on how I can be of influence around me. I’m analyzing my behavioral patterns to enable me to act properly as circumstances arise. I am a happy person, and I want to keep it that way 🙂

This is one of my posts wherein I wrote the title and stitch my way into it. I found out that it’s not a wise approach. I have something in mind when I wrote the title, and something else when I started writing. A typical example of having the idea flew out of my head.

Sometimes I start writing, letting my emotions flow in a stroke of my fingertips, then I allow the title speak the product of my post. I found it comfortable and more personalized.

In life, it’s not about the title you are carrying. It’s about your character, that’s what matters.

Posted in Devotions, Reflections

In His Hands

At some point in my life I tend to go on my own especially when I assume I can handle the job. How many times have I stumbled out of self-reliance? once.. twice.. I will lose count! There are times that I ask (if blame is rude) God why I’m dealing with sufferings I am into only to realize that I dismissed His assistance for the first place. In my shame and embarrassment, I’m blaming myself. I took comfort in sulking. It’s not a good idea but there are times that it doesn’t matter anyway. I’m just having a moment.

As I travel in this journey, I realized that there’s no point of going into that cycle of blamegame. Every lessons are best learned thru mistakes. It’s acceptance that God in His lovingkindness is patient in us and will never leave us. That plan, is the mystery God wants to reveal to you. Everyone has a masterplan, it’s up to us to execute and allow God to guide us along the way.

I’m confident that everything I’d been, I’m getting into, and will experience in the future are essential to achieve the plan that God designed for me to fulfill. It’s the peace of mind that everything rest in His hands, we need nothing to worry about. God, in His power and might, is faithful to finish the work He began in us [~Phil. 1:6].

God bless!

Posted in Samu't-sari

Toys I’d Grown Up With

Super Trump

trump2I learned playing this card with my siblings. They’re older than me so I just sit with them and wait for any of my elder sisters to shout “Super Trump!” and then I fold my card. You will hear various key words like ‘cylinder’ ‘km/hr’ ‘hp’ ‘cc’. This is a very educational card game.


2wmlxygDuring my childhood days, I can obtain this card by cutting my daily allowance into half. If my mother give me 2pesos, I will set aside 1 peso, and in two (working) days I can buy one pack of teks – approximately 50pcs. per movie – btw, teks are indexed numerically from opening scene in the movie until the end. In today’s standard, it’s an SPOILER, no more, no less. This teks can be traded in numerous games ranging from ‘pitik-bulag’ to ‘touching’ and ‘tao-ibon’. I can tell that I am a reader because I usually read each teks and internalizing it in my memory before I start playing with it. My playmates casually open the package and start gambling with it. Nice trivia!


tamiya-new-balance-574-3I wonder if you guys owned one of these racing ‘matchbox’ back on the days. I love this toy! When you joined the race with other tamiya lovers, you’ll be the ‘talk of the town!’

I like R/C cars, but Tamiya cars excel in its own ways.

NBA Cards

hardwoodleaders01I was in high school when i rode this playing cards’ hype. It’s actually more on showing off your NBA cards collection to your buddies. They also have these and you both are trading off with each other’s cards. During trading, you have to check for the ‘damages’ in each edge and whether there’s fold or hint of wrinkle in the card. The idea is actually helpful in introducing young generation in the business world. Sadly, in my collection, no NBA card survived the test of time.

(Rainbow) Magic Springs

517blZAhZTL._SY355_When I owned this toy, my first thought in mind is to look for stair – the higher the better. Why? because stairs are where this toy works best. You just have to push the upper part of the spring and let gravity do the magic! Alternatively, you can hold both ends in your hands and alternately holding one of your hands above from the other but it’s boring 🙂

Brick Game

39521_20101015155911Who can forget this? It’s a primitive version of Tetris in facebook. I remember how excited I am when I owned this. Looking back, it’s amazing how this black-and-white screen can amuse me.

Connect Four

connect-4There are toys that you have no idea what the name is. Connect Four is among these toys, because I have no idea about it’s name, or I don’t care what the name is. I just love this toy!


81y4Ogmd02L._SX522_I remember I purchased one of these from my rich classmate for 5pesos only, equivalent to two 12oz Coca-Cola softdrink. As my Indian friend says: “See? Clever!” This toy is still existing in the market, as growing up kids are fond of it. I even bought my son one of these!

Holen (Marbles)

holenThe funny thing about this toy, it can be a single-player and multi-player mode. In single player, you can roll the marble everywhere ranging from bilao-go-round to bowling balls. In multi-player mode, all you have to do is to draw a square on the ground and put  yours and your opponent’s marbles inside it and hit as much marbles as you can! When you’re out of luck you will ended up losing your marbles. Another game is digging up holes on the ground by pounding a piece of rock and you will try to roll your marble ala golf. If you hear the term “bombet,” that’s the time somebody’s cheating with stroke in playing with marble. The sad part is, the loser will suffer a painful fillip <pitik.. take note, ginoogle ko pa english nian> using a winner’s marble. Ouch!

Pick-up Sticks

pick-up-sticksIt’s a game of precision. You will gather all the sticks and position it standing in the surface with your grip holding each stick. Then you let go the grip and allow each stick to scatter on the surface. The rule is getting as much stick as possible without causing a slight movement on the piling sticks. Your opponent is watching your every move carefully so there’s no way you can cheat. I have something in my sleeve though, hehe… When i let go of the grip, I will apply a gentle push ang presto! lots of sticks are scattered away from each other. Wisdom.

Posted in Reflections

When you have God with you

There are lots of advantages in having God in your life. First, you’re not on your own. Knowing that you’re not alone enables you to boost your confidence. Imagine yourself walking in the dark. Scary isn’t it? But when you have your buddy by your side you won’t feel that because you have someone with you.

When you have God, you are guided by moral principles. You are not easily be entangled with every wicked acts the world has to offer. You are set aside as a person full of moral virtues and high standard of righteousness.

You can always sleep at night knowing that you are protected by God. Whenever you have a bad day, you can be assured that tomorrow is another day because there are new every morning – that’s the promise of God. It’s like you can reset everyday in your life, allowing God to mold you each day to a better you.

I can’t imagine myself without God, but with Him I can do anything.