There comes a time in my life when i feel i am so useless.. As if everything i am laboring for and investing for came to ashes. You know this kind of “back-to-zero” scenario that hey, i have to start from the scratch. But then again, Jesus assured me that I’m more than useless.. (special thanks to Relient K for their song.. indeed they felt the same way i’d felt).
When frustrations are piling up, and i’m running into circles, and i’m stuck, trapped into a loop that there’s no way out. I remember the theory of Charles W. Mills for the personal issues that have a significant impact to a society. Say, a shooting spree.. it’s a personal issue (i.e. bullying, racial discrimination..etc..) that once carrying inside of a person, and when he can’t contain it anymore, he will create an action that have direct impact to his community. That’s once a personal issue, and now a community problem.
The thing is, i want this personal issue to settle within me and find a solution, a concrete solution. The idea is that when other people feel the same way i did, i can advise them for a plausible, workable solution. It might work with them, it might not, but that’s what advise is intended for for the first place. In life, we learn mistakes in two ways: first, mistakes of our forefathers, and second, our mistake. We are not doomed to make the same mistake again! (that’s the essence of learning)
Life never fails to amuse me. I don’t know if you can relate to my thoughts, i just wanna share.
The power to connect determines the enabling process to nurture harmony and peace. Lot of relationships died before having a chance to grow due to circumstances surrounding individuals and the subjective judgment of a person himself towards another. As much as healthy relationships could end in a statement, so is the dying relationship can be saved with convincing truth. Draw people to you not because you want something from them or you want to boast yourself. Draw people to you because that’s how it have to be. Life is about connecting yourself to others, leaving distinctive mark as you leave. Bring out the “friend” in them. Of course, people have characters that we can’t tolerate. They also feel the same way about you so that makes you even. Common sense will tell us that doing kindness to people attracts kindness. Saying that people will abuse you of your kindness is a two-way process. They will only abuse you if you let them. Love your enemy but treat them as they are. If you have to suffer, suffer for what you believe is right because doing things against your will is actually a suffering. Everyday we are dealing with people of various races with different upbringing and possessing unique “morality issues” hardwired in themselves. Politics and norms of society and various beliefs (religions) are moving in parallel with each other. Somebody cross the line and it will disrupt the flow, creating disturbance, and the ripple effect of that personal issue will lead trouble to society.
So we have to have the one mind, one goal, one vision, one advocacy, one voice. We’ve got to be in unison to have a perfect line traveling to the goal called perfection. So what’ the solution? Does anyone actually knew what’s the perfection itself?
We can’t simply suppress someone’s belief. Resistance is always there.
That’s the wonder about God. There’s much more to learn, there’s much more to know about Him.
It is His intention to bring back the man into His kingdom in such a way that man can no longer resist. I knew you will agree with me if I say that’s love. You can ignore love but you simply can’t resist it. Perhaps once, twice.. But He’ll never given up with you, even ’til now.
I’m looking forward to that day when men and women will walk in parallel direction, setting aside their pride and casting their crowns to travel in the perfection that God created for them to travel. Man, in his rational being, is not contented. Today he can live with small earnings, but as his purchase power increases, so is his goal elevates. This convinces us that whatever a man put in front of him is there not to be the goal but to go beyond it! That’s how a man is built – to go beyond boundaries. It’s his nature.
People are choosing their own path. It’s the path that you choose today that will determine who you are in the future. Be sensitive to God. Be aware that whatever you are doing in your location today, you have to move forward to perfection. God is love. Don’t be confused with the pressures and deceptions in front of you. If you have to run blindly to go forward, do it!
Let your line be so straight that you will not move into circles, or worse, backtrack to your former self. Remember that your life is an influence. If you fluctuate the line, you will create an impact to the universe. Ever wonder how great is the impact of each people around the world?
I know it’s hard to explain.. that’s how i see it..
Bottom line: if you are sure that what you are believing leads you towards God and His love, then continue to walk the path. Pray for righteousness to never leave you. Never walk in darkness…never again..
She’s ate Gena.. She created the gown of Sharie and prepared all dresses and every item for the entourage. She’s running a boutique. She’s dedicated in her art. She’s very handy and i remember that she did not go to sleep until she’s satisfied with Sharie’s gown! If you are planning a wedding and if possible to pay visit in Nueva Ecija, guys, she’s highly recommended!
Interesting fact: months after our wedding, they tied the knot!
We Filipinos traditionally practicing for fun that we call all the single ladies and they will position themselves at the back of the bride wherein the bride will toss the flower to them without looking. There’s a favorite knowledge (it’s not a belief) that whoever catch the bouquet will be married next (by fate). Additionally, single men are also present to choose for someone to be paired with a woman who will catch the bouquet. They will represent the bride and the groom. WHATEVER THE GROOM DO IN HIS BRIDE, THEY WILL IMITATE! That’s why out of shyness, not all women are participating.
Here comes the twist.. Our emcee decided to proceed differently. She coined it the other way around. Whoever catch the bouquet will be out of the game (which means she’ll not be paired with a guy). She managed to be the first to catch the bouquet, and walk away happily in the game.
Few months later, we received a happy news that she decided to get married!
Coincidence? That’s debatable. We’re just happy for her and her husband. yeeeeee…(can’t hide the thrill that it feels).
Apologies to Mr. Joshua Harris (author of I Kissed Dating Goodbye) for imitating the title. I just want it to be catchy, you know.
July 07, 2007 10pm. Touchdown – Qatar. I can’t believe it! I’m officially in the middle east region. Looking back on my home country, I am very excited on experiences and adventures this Arab country has to offer. Not to mention that I am a devout born again Christian and I want to make a difference here. Driven by factors many to mention, this is the fulfillment of a long-time dream to have a stable job – almost. I don’t have job yet since I arrived here via visit business visa.
Then I was toured around the city by my generous sister with her husband. In that two weeks sprint, I gained weight. That’s incredible since I’d never gained weight before! Then on 15th July I applied in two companies namely Technip Middle East and Fugro. The next day, I’d found myself starting to work in Fugro. Nice! Nice!
This five-year adventure is life-changing! I’m planning to write a book about it so watch out! I want to include you guys in my book. And what would be the title? Feel free to suggest… below are the phrases came to my mind:
“The Rise and Fall of Challenges in the Arab Ground” – sounds epic.
“How I’d spent half a decade of my life in the Middle East” – sounds chronologic.
“Conquering Qatar” – ala-Napoleon Bonaparte eh?
“Living Life in Arabic Culture” – breaking boundaries of cultural differences
“Paradigm Shift… Character Development” – this sums all the growth and lessons I’d learned (life is continuous learning process, right?)
“Truth and Consequence” – all it take for me to be me..everything I have to trade off and all the choices I took as I stand in the test of time.
“So What’s Wrong on Being Funny and Nice?? Smile, it doesn’t hurts.” – sounds humorous..
Ok..so much for that. I’m looking forward on making into fulfillment the production of my book. Then I will publish it here..weeee…self-proclaimed author in the house!!
By the way, as true as it sounds, I kissed middle east goodbye. Philippines, here I come!!